Sunday, February 22, 2009


I trust until I am given a reason not to trust. I kind of live by a baseball rule; three strikes and you're out of my life.

This has happened to me and I have left people who meant a great deal to me behind. It hurts to find that my trust has been misplaced but I think the hurt would be much greater if the person breaking the trust were to remain in my life.

I had a friend that I had known for 15 years. We had been through so much together. We even moved out of state together. She broke my trust while we lived together but I forgave her. She broke my trust after she moved home and I remained away. The third and final time came when she accused me of stealing a large sum of money from her aunt. Maybe she thought I had broken her trust I don't know, but I knew that she had that final time broken mine. I think she stole the money and was using me as her patsy. I have not talked to her since.

Trusting in a family member is different than trusting a friend. I can't really walk away from a person in my family. If I could, I would have left my brother in the dust a long time ago. But I love him and he is the only sibling I have. I keep forgiving him and will continue that way forever I guess. Maybe I trust him a little bit less each time but I do trust him. I know that if I needed him he would move heaven and earth to get to me. I just don't trust everything he tells me and I would never trust him to return something borrowed.

I think a person has to trust. I can't imagine going through life without trusting. How unhappy I would be. I think trust and love go together. I couldn't be a friend if I didn't trust that person. And I wouldn't be a very good friend if they couldn't trust me.

Through life there have been disappointments. I may have broken someones trust. I am sure I must have because I am not a perfect specimen. But I try hard to be truthful, kind, respectful, and always loving. And I expect the same in return.

I do know that no matter what kind of person I may be there is always One that I can trust in. I know that the Lord will not turn his back on me. I know that He will always love me, no matter what.

One of my favorite quotes of Scripture is:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your path straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Yes, trusting is difficult but I have to do it.

1 comment:

  1. Trust is not as easy as it sounds and I do think there are degrees of it. Not like breathing or not. Reading your post reminded me of several incidents in my own life where I didn't have the energy to fight for trust - ...